Dear You:
I'm on vacation and just the fact that I hear my thoughts makes me want to write so much. I know I have to. I know you can listen. I'm actually not missing only you today. I miss my sister and I miss Bobby too. The house is so quiet. It is hard to be here and hear my breathe. Your love makes me stronger. I need to carry on Dan. I need to open the new chapter of my book. I'm ready. Are you ready?
Thursday, October 17, 2013
Thursday, August 22, 2013
Day 7
Dear you:
I know there's a stronger force within me to write. There's something that tells me that I have to. I'm not sure why I've stop. I find myself coming to this blog to share my emotions and or celebrate life. I just finished watching a movie called Unconditional. Wow, what an incredible movie. It really touched me. I guess I was able to relate to the character. She is a writer too. I writer that once lost hope in writing. Maybe I get re-motivated. Maybe I get in touch with myself.
I believe in signs. I think they are trying to talk to Me. I know there is something behind my birthday. There is something with 513 that will come to life soon in my life. I wish I knew what it is. It just comes and goes like its trying to say something. I know you are watching me. I know that you are not leaving my sight. Even in the moment where I might feel lonely- I'm never alone. That gives me hope. God is with me, you are with me.
I think is time Daniel. It's time for me to leave the space open-- completely. I am ready for love. Not sure where it will come from, not sure who he is, where he is and when he will show up; but I will find him. Or he is finding me. Maybe, he already found me and I don't know. ;)
A few years back I had a dear friend tell me that I had to write. I'm doing that now, because I know I can't let all this inside me. I sing inside you know. My whole spirit jumps of joy, cause of hope. That never dies. Love never dies.
Can you out your magic touch? I know you can.
Talk to you soon.
Love always,
~me
I know there's a stronger force within me to write. There's something that tells me that I have to. I'm not sure why I've stop. I find myself coming to this blog to share my emotions and or celebrate life. I just finished watching a movie called Unconditional. Wow, what an incredible movie. It really touched me. I guess I was able to relate to the character. She is a writer too. I writer that once lost hope in writing. Maybe I get re-motivated. Maybe I get in touch with myself.
I believe in signs. I think they are trying to talk to Me. I know there is something behind my birthday. There is something with 513 that will come to life soon in my life. I wish I knew what it is. It just comes and goes like its trying to say something. I know you are watching me. I know that you are not leaving my sight. Even in the moment where I might feel lonely- I'm never alone. That gives me hope. God is with me, you are with me.
I think is time Daniel. It's time for me to leave the space open-- completely. I am ready for love. Not sure where it will come from, not sure who he is, where he is and when he will show up; but I will find him. Or he is finding me. Maybe, he already found me and I don't know. ;)
A few years back I had a dear friend tell me that I had to write. I'm doing that now, because I know I can't let all this inside me. I sing inside you know. My whole spirit jumps of joy, cause of hope. That never dies. Love never dies.
Can you out your magic touch? I know you can.
Talk to you soon.
Love always,
~me
Thursday, August 8, 2013
Day 6 (3 years later)
Can we start again?
I believe in second chances.... I think we deserve to try again....
Ok, I spoke about you the other day... They asked me who would I want at my last supper and of course I had to say your name. If I had a chance to be with anyone at my last meal it would certainly be you. I didn't have to think it twice. Just the thought of it, brings me goosebumps.
Stop, I know you are here right now. I can feel you. Not sure what happened today that drove me back to this blog. I didn't even think it existed. I'm glad I found it. Someone inspired me to write to you but unfortunately the same way I started writing I had to stop cause a huge misunderstanding hindered my inspiration and puff it was all gone. All of a sudden I was angry and I didn't want to write anymore. Just the thought of words made me nauseous.
Knowing that I will be alone soon, makes me sad. It also makes me happy as I have been alone before and I do enjoy alone time. However, I don't think I've been this alone. As you know, Bobby is not here this time to bark at me when I'm crazy. Shit, that scares me. There's s big reason I came all the way here for. And I am sure is not to only to get gray hairs and drive a crazy store in the middle of an alligator shape mall. What's my purpose? Why TIME and I don't get along?
Do I even make any sense? I know you understand me, in a particular crazy way.
Well is time for me to go to bed but I will come back and narrate what's to come. Maybe the next blog is about the bucket list I started? Or maybe we talk about my empty heart?
Love always, (remember?) ;)
~me
I believe in second chances.... I think we deserve to try again....
Ok, I spoke about you the other day... They asked me who would I want at my last supper and of course I had to say your name. If I had a chance to be with anyone at my last meal it would certainly be you. I didn't have to think it twice. Just the thought of it, brings me goosebumps.
Stop, I know you are here right now. I can feel you. Not sure what happened today that drove me back to this blog. I didn't even think it existed. I'm glad I found it. Someone inspired me to write to you but unfortunately the same way I started writing I had to stop cause a huge misunderstanding hindered my inspiration and puff it was all gone. All of a sudden I was angry and I didn't want to write anymore. Just the thought of words made me nauseous.
Knowing that I will be alone soon, makes me sad. It also makes me happy as I have been alone before and I do enjoy alone time. However, I don't think I've been this alone. As you know, Bobby is not here this time to bark at me when I'm crazy. Shit, that scares me. There's s big reason I came all the way here for. And I am sure is not to only to get gray hairs and drive a crazy store in the middle of an alligator shape mall. What's my purpose? Why TIME and I don't get along?
Do I even make any sense? I know you understand me, in a particular crazy way.
Well is time for me to go to bed but I will come back and narrate what's to come. Maybe the next blog is about the bucket list I started? Or maybe we talk about my empty heart?
Love always, (remember?) ;)
~me
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