Can we start again?
I believe in second chances.... I think we deserve to try again....
Ok, I spoke about you the other day... They asked me who would I want at my last supper and of course I had to say your name. If I had a chance to be with anyone at my last meal it would certainly be you. I didn't have to think it twice. Just the thought of it, brings me goosebumps.
Stop, I know you are here right now. I can feel you. Not sure what happened today that drove me back to this blog. I didn't even think it existed. I'm glad I found it. Someone inspired me to write to you but unfortunately the same way I started writing I had to stop cause a huge misunderstanding hindered my inspiration and puff it was all gone. All of a sudden I was angry and I didn't want to write anymore. Just the thought of words made me nauseous.
Knowing that I will be alone soon, makes me sad. It also makes me happy as I have been alone before and I do enjoy alone time. However, I don't think I've been this alone. As you know, Bobby is not here this time to bark at me when I'm crazy. Shit, that scares me. There's s big reason I came all the way here for. And I am sure is not to only to get gray hairs and drive a crazy store in the middle of an alligator shape mall. What's my purpose? Why TIME and I don't get along?
Do I even make any sense? I know you understand me, in a particular crazy way.
Well is time for me to go to bed but I will come back and narrate what's to come. Maybe the next blog is about the bucket list I started? Or maybe we talk about my empty heart?
Love always, (remember?) ;)
~me
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